infinity, she said

Friday, December 03, 2004

you left my world silently.
- mok.

out of the blue, i realised the similarity of how they left me. it was as though they literally told me, i dont want you anymore. and perhaps that's why i clung on so tightly. the difference was, i clung on tighter to 18. dont know why these thoughts just zoom out of nowhere sometimes; perhaps they were triggered.

i find myself too predictable sometimes. if someone just offered a hand of friendship, with promises that it provides support and encourage throughout the bad and good, a listening ear; i'll take that hand with all trust and heart. i've been rather careful after certain bruises, but i'm getting nowhere in current friendships. and 18 seems to be the only way out; but she wasn't always there, you see.

so the story goes; there's something you should know
before i walk away and i blow the ending.
i never want to be without you.
- hilary duff; now you know.

i do miss you, really. but sometimes i just cant be bothered to think bout you anymore. or should i say, i dont think about you. you've been taken over, now i'm waiting for someone else to take over the person that has taken over you. :) funny the way it works, as usual, it's a cycle to forget and move forward.
i still wish i was with you though. because you make my world different. you're the one who protects me from all things bad that come my way. i do miss you. i really do. you dont know it, do you?

12:32 AM