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Saturday, March 26, 2005
doubt and passion
to doubt is to fear; it's a loss of hope.
i crashed one of my friend's lectures recently as fsv had started its holidays earlier than any other course. it was enjoyable but highly intimidating. their work was intensive, each stroke to the slightest detail. it was all i could take, i knew i would have succumbed to the pressure if i were to be in such a course. and then i started doubting my abilities and my position in the school, even worse the industry. how will i survive with such meagre talents and ablities? worse still, i'm a lazy bum who loves to sleep and eat all day. yes darwin, :) reprimanded me the other day about my laziness and no, i wont let you have the chance to say, "i told you so." it's always been in me, i put off my work till the next day and come up with something on the spot. how efficient :) HAHAHA, goodies. yes i doubt myself. is my passion really in film-making or do i earn for something else? no matter what, i'm still a coward and i run to the nearest escape route in any possible way. i doubt i will survive far in this industry thus my solutions are: to work in another industry or, be a tai-tai :) goodie. perhaps i'll be a scriptwriter, churning out words and more words. whatever it is, i have to complete my diploma first, right?
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