infinity, she said

Monday, April 04, 2005

colors

a mango-shaped space by wendy mass
i know Grandpa's soul isn't wandering the woods likr the ghosts i sometimes think i glimpse between the trees. part of his soul is right next to me, stored safe and sound inside mango. i knew this as soon as i saw the little kitten sitting by grandpa's grave that day, looking up at me with grandpa's eyes. i firmly believe that people's souls can splinter off when they die. part of grandpa is inside of mango, part is in heaven dancing with grams (who was really a good dancer), and only grandpa himself knows where the rest of him is. this is just my own personal theory.

i like colors. bright vibrant colors or pastel soft colors, they are all my favourites. i watch 13o6 play with gluey paint and her sense of colors are really good. even though the colors do not seem to work hand in hand at first, the end product looks exceptionally pretty. i like her weird sense of coloring. and if i'm supposed to describe myself in a color, bright red would be the best option. it signifies my hot-temper for i flare up easily over the little things and my ~~hot-blooded passion~~ habit of looking out for sexy boys and girls. bright red would also be a sudden burst of energy, excitement which would not last very long and after a while, you get sick of the colour. yea, dont you think so? if i had a choice to be a color, i would choose grey. a balance between white and black and somewhat calm and soothing color which does not really stand out, however if it is noticed, it plays an important role. grey would also be a distinctive color among shades and perspective angles. hahaha, somewhat it describes earl; doesn't it? no wonder it's earl grey tea. (ALRIGHT, LAME!!!)

darwin called me today. (eh i mean, yesterday.) sorry i didn't sound very excited or enthusiastic for i was somewhat tired after bringing rinoa to parkway. (it rained heavily and i was beginning to feel sleepy.) however that voice was so familiar... :) you're quite a psycho, ain't you? i was wondering whether i should tell you i've cut my hair short and you raised the topic later in the conversation! telepathy man... (HAHAHA!) as usual, the conversation picked on topics like how to groom myself so that boys will go after me. you go over there also must slim down alright? then i bet girls will go after you because when you smile, your dimples show and then they'll go all googily-gaggily, pinch your cheeks and kiss you till you shiok. :)

i think my mind switches to another mode when it is night. i've tried not to sleep during the afternoons so that i would enjoy a proper doze at night. it doesn't work and i'm suffering from insomnia for more than three days already. it's weird that my thoughts direct to you only at night and i start thinking of the past, present and future. they revolve around you and i end up tossing and turning in bed. i think i'm going mad; and like what they say, "be careful what you wish for." yea, i ought to take that into serious consideration. you're crazy, 721, aren't you?

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