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Tuesday, August 23, 2005
all dried up
i've grown all soft and weak. yes poly life has made me weak, both mind and body. i'm so unhappy with everything about myself. it seems that all i make are bad choices that i later feel like giving up. i need someone by my side, all the time to tell me i'm alright, it's okay; everything will turn out fine. i dont want to end up in reality tv, trying to make everything right by surgery. and when i see them smoke their cigarettes away, i want to die along with them too. i dont dress up pretty often for i dont want disappointment that i'm not up to standard. i dont want her to compare me with others, it's a blue moon everytime we meet; there's no need for her to bring me down deeper. i'm all dried up. apparently trying your best is not your capability.
10:21 PM